Speakin' to oneself

Ofcuse,he told mi "no i didn't"n "why??" Who's gonna tell da truth 4dat Q?? what a stupid i am😂
then he catch dat im getting negative thinking. i wanna belive u, b u acting like so, tell mi like so n u treat mi like so sometimes．
So!! If u wanna lose mi cuz im negative, OK. i can get it. b u need tell mi n let mi know dat.

i told him dat why i ask dat Q. And we tolked on line, b i gave up to told everything. Cuz, its nothing i mean no matter he said we still don't have time. b im so upset 'bout the way he act on line. He wanna be cool 4dat?? If he don't wanna talk about dat kind of things. Fuck off. I'm not friends with benefits,men.

if u don't wanna talk about this relationship deeply, dats means u think i'm ur friends with benefits.
if u so, i can't take it. so, back off n never turn aroud again plz.

Men,i really really need to know what u thinking 'bout mi!!! i know u'll say "i don't know" hell no. Don't lie to mi, men. i wanna make it right now. plz, tell mi da truth. I need it. You take long time for think about this. And i know dat u already have a answer of this. Cuz, we spend half year now!!

maybe he feel it i'm gonna say bye. i know dat he will take it n he'll say nothing for dat. cuz, he don't care about me. dats so sad...but however i choose he will just take it n he'll not say anything.

waowaowao❤he came here lyk once a week!! and he kiss my cheek, nose, forehead n lips n smiling me when i'm going to sleep. how happy i am❤❤❤ he don't say anything bout mi, but i'm sure dat he lyks mi little bit better than b4. yap❤ i don't care he will gone 5years or more. i'll luv him as long as time allows(∩´͈ ᐜ `͈∩)❤

i don't know why now i'm crying.. nothing going on b i just scared dat he'll gone too long soon... i can't stand this station. god plz help me. don't take him fron mi...I often wonder what my life'd be like today if I didn't have you. i'm so lonely right now. I'd be at a loss if I were ever to lose you.

this Tuesday was The day of judgment, so i never thought u coming. u drunk too much n laughing. when u came u dropped ur staff n kiss my forehead n hug me tight. he did lyk dat few Times n start to eating. dats so cute n i was so happy 4it. then u finished eating, u got a groggy...

but he look for my hands by touch n let me pull in to his arms♡ we spend good time with each other.
and when he go back, i took his hand n ask him..「u really going now??」then he told me 「i can't promise u b maybe i'll come Sunday.」then now it's Thursday u line me yesterday lyk 「 i think i'm catch a cold..」wf

b when he said dat, he kiss my forehead n cheek n hug mi few times. how happy i am. dats first time he show me how he feel, i think. I lyk him AF. God!! plz fix a his cold n bring him here for me and my son!!pllllllllz